Where yours will fall the first of human feet Has Wisdom sate there and recorded aught You press to read? Why turn aside from her To visit, where her vesture never glanced, Now-solitudes consigned to barrenness
By God's decree, which who shall dare impugn? Now-ruins where she paused but would not stay, Old ravaged cities that, renouncing her, She called an endless curse on, so it came- Or, worst of all, now-men you visit, men, Ignoblest troops that never heard her voice, Or hate it, men without one gift from Rome Or Athens, these shall Aureole's teachers be! Rejecting past example, practice, precept, Aidless 'mid these he thinks to stand alone: Thick like a glory round the Stagyrite
Your rivals throng, the sages: here stand you! Whate'er you may protest, knowledge is not Paramount in your love; or for her sake You would collect all help from every source— Rival or helper, friend, foe, all would merge.
In the broad class of those who showed her haunts, And those who showed them not.
Par. What shall I say? Festus, from childhood I have been possessed By a fire-by a true fire, or faint or fierce, As from without some master, so it seemed, Repressed or urged its current: this but ill Expresses what I would convey—but rather
I will believe an angel ruled me thus,
Than that my soul's own workings, own high nature, So became manifest. I knew not then
What whispered in the evening, and spoke out At midnight. If some mortal, born too soon, Were laid away in some great trance-the ages Coming and going all the while-till dawned His true time's advent, and could then record The words they spoke who kept watch by his bed,- Then I might teil more of the breath so light Upon my eyelids, and the fingers warm Among my hair.
Youth is confused; yet never So dull was I but, when that spirit passed, I turned to him, scarce consciously, as turns A water-snake when fairies cross his sleep. And having this within me and about me While Einsiedeln, its mountains, lakes, and woods Confined me- -what oppressive joy was mine When life grew plain, and I first viewed the thronged, The ever-moving concourse of mankind! Believe that ere I joined them-ere I knew The purpose of the pageant, or the place. Consigned to me within its ranks-while yet Wonder was freshest and delight most pure- 'Twas then that least supportable appeared A station with the brightest of the crowd, A portion with the proudest of them all! And from the tumult in my breast, this only Could I collect-that I must thenceforth die,
Or elevate myself far, far above
The gorgeous spectacle. I seemed to long At once to trample on, yet save mankind— To make some unexampled sacrifice
In their behalf-to wring some wondrous good From heaven or earth for them-to perish, winning Eternal weal in the act: as who should dare Pluck out the angry thunder from its cloud, That, all its gathered flame discharged on him, No storm might threaten summer's azure sleep: Yet never to be mixed with men so much As to have part even in my own work-share In my own largess. Once the feat achieved, I would withdraw from their officious praise, Would gently put aside their profuse thanks: Like some knight traversing a wilderness, Who, on his way, may chance to free a tribe Of desert-people from their dragon-foe; When all the swarthy race press round to kiss His feet, and choose him for their king, and yield Their poor tents, pitched among the sand-hills, for His realm; and he points, smiling, to his scarf, Heavy with riveled gold, his burgonet, Gay set with twinkling stones-and to the east, Where these must be displayed!
No more about your nature," which first shrank From all that marked you out apart from men!" Par. I touch on that; these words but analyze
That first mad impulse-'twas as brief as fond; For as I gazed again upon the show,
I soon distinguished here and there a shape Palm-wreathed and radiant, forehead and full eye. Well pleased was I their state should thus at once Interpret my own thoughts: "Behold the clue To all," I rashly said, "and what I pine "To do, these have accomplished: we are peers! "They know, and therefore rule: I, too, will know!" You were beside me, Festus, as you say;
You saw me plunge in their pursuits whom Fame Is lavish to attest the lords of mind;
Not pausing to make sure the prize in view Would satiate my cravings when obtained— But since they strove I strove. Then came a slow And strangling failure. We aspired alike, Yet not the meanest plodder Tritheim schools But faced me, all-sufficient, all-content, Or staggered only at his own strong wits; While I was restless, nothing satisfied, Distrustful, most perplexed. I would slur over That struggle; suffice it, that I loathed myself As weak compared with them, yet felt somehow A mighty power was brooding, taking shape Within me; and this lasted till one night When, as I sate revolving it and more,
A still voice from without said-"See'st thou not, Desponding child, whence came defeat and loss?
Even from thy strength. Consider: hast thou gazed
Presumptuously on Wisdom's countenance,
"No veil between; and can thy hands which falter SS Unguided by thy brain the mighty sight "Continues to absorb, pursue their task
"On earth like these around thee-what their sense “Which radiance ne'er distracted, clear descries? "If thou wouldst share their fortune, choose their life, "Unfed by splendour. Let each task present
"In profitless waiting for the gods' descent, "But have some idol of thine own to dress
"With their array. Know, not for knowing's sake, "But to become a star to men forever.
"Know, for the gain it gets, the praise it brings, "The wonder it inspires, the love it breeds. "Look one step onward, and secure that step." And I smiled as one never smiles but once; Then first discovering my own aim's extent, Which sought to compreherd the works of God, And God himself, and all God's intercourse With the human mind; I understood, no less, My fellow's studies, whose true worth I saw, But smiled not, well aware who stood by me And softer came the voice-" There is a way— 'Tis hard for flesh to tread therein, imbued With frailty-hopeless, if indulgence first Have ripened inborn germs of sin to strength: Wilt thou adventure for my sake and man's, "Apart from all reward?" And last it breathed-
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