Your name in pride and thankfulness! Take back the hope you gave,—I claim Only a memory of the same,
-And this beside, if you will not blame, Your leave for one more last ride with me.
My mistress bent that brow of hers; Those deep dark eyes where pride demurs When pity would be softening through, Fixed me a breathing-while or two
With life or death in the balance: right! The blood replenished me again;
My last thought was at least not vain : I and my mistress, side by side,
Shall be together, breathe and ride,
So, one day more am I deified.
Who knows but the world may end to-night?
Hush! if you saw some western cloud All billowy-bosomed, over-bowed By many benedictions-sun's
And moon's and evening-star's at once- And so, you, looking and loving best, Conscious grew, your passion drew Cloud, sunset, moonrise, star-shine too, Down on you, near and yet more near,
Till flesh must fade for heaven was here!— Thus leant she and lingered-joy and fear Thus lay she a moment on my breast.
Then we began to ride. My soul Smoothed itself out, a long-cramped scroll Freshening and fluttering in the wind. Past hopes already lay behind.
What need to strive with a life awry? Had I said that, had I done this, So might I gain, so might I miss. Might she have loved me? just as well She might have hated, who can tell!
Where had I been now if the worst befell? And here we are riding, she and I.
Fail I alone, in words and deeds? Why, all men strive and who succeeds?
We rode; it seemed my spirit flew, Saw other regions, cities new,
As the world rushed by on either side. I thought,-All labor, yet no less Bear up beneath their unsuccess. Look at the end of work, contrast The petty done, the undone vast,
This present of theirs with the hopeful past! I hoped she would love me: here we ride.
What hand and brain went ever paired? What heart alike conceived and dared? What act proved all its thought had been? What will but felt the fleshy screen?
We ride and I see her bosom heave. There's many a crown for who can reach. Ten lines, a statesman's life in each! The flag stuck on a heap of bones, A soldier's doing! what atones?
They scratch his name on the Abbey-stones. My riding is better, by their leave.
What does it all mean, poet? Well, Your brains beat into rhythm, you tell What we felt only; you expressed You hold things beautiful the best,
And pace them in rhyme so, side by side. 'Tis something, nay 'tis much but then, Have you yourself what's best for men? Are you-poor, sick, old ere your time- Nearer one whit your own sublime Than we who have never turned a rhyme? Sing, riding's a joy! For me, I ride.
And you, great sculptor-so, you gave A score of years to Art, her slave, And that's your Venus, whence we turn To yonder girl that fords the burn!
You acquiesce, and shall I repine? What, man of music, you grown gray With notes and nothing else to say, Is this your sole praise from a friend, “Greatly his opera's strains intend, But in music we know how fashions end!" I gave my youth; but we ride, in fine.
Who knows what's fit for us? Proposed bliss here should sublimate My being-had I signed the bond- Still one must lead some life beyond, Have a bliss to die with, dim descried, This foot once planted on the goal, This glory-garland round my soul, Could I descry such? Try and test! I sink back shuddering from the quest.
Earth being so good, would heaven seem best? Now, heaven and she are beyond this ride.
And yet she has not spoke so long! What if heaven be that, fair and strong At life's best, with our eyes upturned Whither life's flower is first discerned.
We, fixed so, ever should so abide? What if we still ride on, we two, With life forever old yet new, Changed not in kind but in degree, The instant made eternity,—
And heaven just prove that I and she Ride, ride together, forever ride?
ALL I believed is true!
I am able yet
All I want, to get
By a method as strange as new. Dare I trust the same to you?
If at night, when doors are shut, And the wood-worm picks, And the death-watch ticks, And the bar has a flag of smut, And a cat's in the water-butt-
And the socket floats and flares, And the house-beams groan, And a foot unknown
Is surmised on the garret stairs, And the locks slip unawares—
And the spider, to serve his ends, By a sudden thread,
Arms and legs outspread,
On the table's midst descends,
Comes to find, God knows what friends!
If since eve drew in, I say, I have sat and brought (So to speak) my thought To bear on the woman away, Till I felt my hair turn gray-
Till I seemed to have and hold, In the vacancy
"Twixt the wall and me
From the hair-plait's chestnut-gold To the foot in its muslin fold-
Have and hold, then and there, Her, from head to foot, Breathing and mute,
Passive and yet aware,
In the grasp of my steady stare
Hold and have, there and then, All her body and soul That completes my whole, All that women add to men, In the clutch of my steady ken—
Having and holding, till
I imprint her fast
On the void at last
As the sun does whom he will
By the calotypist's skill-—
Then,-if my heart's strength serve,
And through all and each
Of the veils I reach
To her soul and never swerve, Knitting an iron nerve-
Command her soul to advance And inform the shape Which has made escape And before my countenance Answers me glance for glance-
I, still with a gesture fit Of my hands that best Do my soul's behest, Pointing the power from it, While myself do steadfast sit-
Steadfast and still the same On my object bent,
While the hands give vent To my ardor and my aim And break into very flame-
Then I reach, I must believe, Not her soul in vain, For to me again
It reaches, and past retrieve
Is wound in the toils I weave;
And must follow as I require, As befits a thrall,
Bringing flesh and all, Essence and earth-attire,
To the source of the tractile fire:
Till the house called hers, not mine With a growing weight
Seems to suffocate
If she break not its leaden line And escape from its close confine.
Out of doors into the night!
On to the maze
Of the wild wood-ways,
Not turning to left nor right
From the pathway, blind with sight
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