The entries in the diary continue for many months to dwell upon the desire of this godly youth's heart.

"Thurs. Nov. 17. I came home to my lodgings. . . ... I was considerably melancholy under my Disappointment at Northampton; concluded notwithstanding, by Leave of Providence to make another trial in the Spring.

"Sat. 19. So discomposed I could not study. I could not have thought that what I have lately met with would have had this effect. The Lord hath put me in a very good school. I hope I shall profit by it.

"Sat. 20. Much more composed. I endeavoured to roll off my burden upon the Lord, and He sustained me. I preached all day from They that are whole need not a physician but they that are sick.

"Mon. Dec. 5. I wrote two letters to

Northampton, one to dear Mistress Esther Edwards, who I find ingrosseth too many of my Tho'ts, yet some glimmering of Hope supported my Spirits.

"Frid. 23. I was this day so pressed down under the weight of some peculiar Burdens both of a Temporal and Spiritual Nature, that I could not fix my mind to do anything at all in the forenoon. In the afternoon I attended a private Meeting at Mr. Samuel Fiske's, read a Sermon out of Dr. Watts.

"Sat. 24. Melancholy all day: it seems to be growing upon me. I read a little, but chief of the Day sat meditating on my Troubles. Evening my Burden somewhat lightened. Oh! that I could be thankful: for it almost unfits me for the Service of God or man!

"Sat. 25. Preached all Day from They

that be whole need not a physician, but they that be sick.

"Mon. 26. Went out to divert myself, and visited several of the Neighbours.

"Sat. Jan. 1, 1749. I preached all day from Commit thy way unto the Lord: trust also in him. An extreme cold day, very few people at meeting.

"Sat. 7. Studied all day. Being burdened so much this week, I could not get prepared for the Sabbath until in the Evening.

"Sat. 28. Very much out of order.

66 Sabbath 29. Preached all Day from Yea, all who will live Godly in Christ Jesus shall suffer Persecution. Much indisposed all Day.

"Mon. 30. My illness seems to increase upon me.

"Tues. 31. Something better through Mercy was able to do a little writing.

"Wed. Feb. 1. Something better: wrote two Letters to Northampton.

"Tues. 21. I read all the forenoon: afternoon wrote a Letter to Northampton to send to Mr. Isaac Parker who designs to set out for there tomorrow. Spent the Evening with the Committee who came up from Town to lay out the Common about our Meeting (house).

"Sat. 25. This day being the Anniversary of my Ordination I devoted to Fasting and Prayer. I was obliged to study some not being prepared for Tomorrow. I endeavoured to lay low before God for my many sins, and the many aggravations of 'em. Especially for the short Comings of the Year past. An awful breach of Vows and Promises. I solemnly renewed my Covenant and made Resolutions and Promises. I hoped in the strength of Christ that I would live better, that I