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with sights of horror, sufficient to terrify minds which were not absolute slaves to the passion of fear; but so great is the force of habit, that what inspires a landman with the highest apprehensions of danger, gives not the least concern to a sailor, to whom rocks and quick-sands are almost the only objects of terror.

"The master, however, was a little mistaken in the present instance; for he had not left the cabin above an hour, before my man came running to me, and acquainted me that the ship was half full of water; that the sailors were going to hoist out the boat and save themselves, and begged me to come that moment along with him, as I tendered my preservation. With this account, which was conveyed to me in a whisper, I acquainted both the captain and ensign; and we altogether immediately mounted the deck, where we found the master making use of all his oratory to persuade the sailors that the ship was in no danger; and at the same time employed all his authority to set the pumps a-going, which he assured them would keep the water under, and save his dear Lovely Peggy, (for that was the name of the ship), which he swore he loved as dearly as his own soul.

"Indeed this sufficiently appeared; for the leak was so great, and the water flowed in so plentifully, that his Lovely Peggy was half filled before he could be brought to think of quitting her; but now the boat was brought alongside the ship; and the master himself, notwithstanding all his love for her, quitted his ship, and leaped into the boat. Every man present attempted to follow his example, when I heard the voice of my servant roaring forth my name in a kind of agony. I made directly to the ship side, but was too late; for the boat, being already over laden, put directly off. And now, madam, I am going to relate to you an instance of heroic affection in a poor fellow towards his master, to which love itself, even among persons of superior education, can produce but few similar instances. My poor man being unable to get me with him into the boat, leaped suddenly into the sea, and swam back to the ship; and when I gently rebuked him for his rashness, he answered, he chose rather to die with me, than to live to carry the account of my death to my Amelia; at the same time bursting into a flood of tears, he cried, Good Heavens! what will that poor lady feel when she hears of this! This tender concern for my dear love endeared the poor fellow more to me than the gallant instance which he had just before given of his affection towards myself.

"And now, madam, my eyes were shocked with a sight, the horror of which can scarce be imagined; for the boat had scarce got four hundred yards from the ship, when it was swallowed up by the merciless waves, which now ran so high, that out of the number of persons which were in the boat, none recovered the ship; though

many of them we saw miserably perish before our eyes, some of them very near us, without any possibility of giving them the least assistance.

"But whatever we felt for them, we felt, I believe, more for ourselves, expecting every minute when we should share the same fate. Among the rest, one of our officers appeared quite stupified with fear. I never indeed saw a more miserable example of the great power of that passion: I must not, however, omit doing him justice, by saying, that I afterwards saw the same man behave well in an engagement, in which he was wounded: though there, likewise, he was said to have betrayed the same passion of fear in his countenance.

"The other of our officers was no less stupified (if I may so express myself) with fool hardiness, and seemed almost insensible of his danger. To say the truth, I have, from this and some other instances which I have seen, been almost inclined to think, that the courage as well as cowardice of fools proceeds from not knowing what is, or what is not, the proper object of fear. Indeed, we may account for the extreme hardiness of some men, in the same manner as for the terrors of children at a bugbear. The child knows not but that the bugbear is the proper object of fear, the blockhead knows not that a cannon ball is so.

"As to the remaining part of the ship's crew, and the soldiery, most of them were dead drunk; and the rest were endeavouring, as fast as they could, to prepare for death in the same manner.

"In this dreadful situation we were taught, that no human condition should inspire men with absolute despair: for as the storm had ceased for some time, the swelling of the sea began considerably to abate; and we now perceived the man of war which convoyed us, at no great distance astern. Those aboard her easily perceived our distress, and made towards us. When they came pretty near, they hoisted out two boats to our assistance. These no sooner approached the ship, than they were instantaneously filled, and I myself got a place in one of them, chiefly by the aid of my honest servant, of whose fidelity to me on all occasions I cannot speak or think too highly. Indeed I got into the boat so much the more easily, as a great number on board the ship were rendered by drink incapable of taking any care for themselves. There was time, however, for the boat to pass and repass; so that when we came to call over names, three only, of all that remained in the ship, after the loss of their own boat, were missing.

"The captain, ensign, and myself, were received with many congratulations by our officers on board the man of war. The sea officers too, all except the captain, paid us their compliments, though these were of the rougher kind, and not without several jokes on our escape. As for the

captain himself, we scaree saw him during many hours; and when he appeared he presented a view of majesty beyond any that I had ever seen. The dignity which he preserved, did indeed give me rather the idea of a Mogul or a Turkish emperor, than of any of the monarchs of Christendom. To say the truth, I could resemble his walk on the deck to nothing but to the image of Captain Gulliver strutting among the Lilliputians; he seemed to think himself a being of an order superior to all around him, and more especially to us of the land service. Nay, such was the behaviour of all the sea officers and sailors to us and our soldiers, that instead of appearing to be subjects of the same prince, engaged in one quarrel, and joined to support one cause; we landmen rather seemed to be captives on board an enemy's vessel. This is a grievous misfortune, and often proves so fatal to the service, that it is great pity some means could not be found of curing it.'

Here Mr Booth stopt a while to take breath. We will therefore give the same refreshment to the reader.

CHAP. V.

most day and night during my illness; and by strengthening my hopes, raising my spirits, and cheering my thoughts, preserved me from destruction.

"The behaviour of this man alone is a sufficient proof of the truth of my doctrine, that all men act entirely from their passions; for Bob James can never be supposed to act from any motive of virtue and religion, since he constantly laughs at both ; and yet his conduct towards me alone demonstrates a degree of goodness, which, perhaps, few of the votaries of either virtue or religion can equal."

"You need not take much pains," answered Miss Matthews, with a smile," to convince me of your doctrine. I have been always an advocate for the same. I look upon the two words you mention, to serve only as cloaks under which hypocrisy may be the better enabled to cheat the world. I have been of that opinion ever since I read that charming fellow Mandevil.”

"Pardon me, madam," answered Booth, “I hope you do not agree with Mandevil neither, who hath represented human nature in a picture of the highest deformity. He hath left out of his system the best passion which the mind can possess, and attempts to derive the effects or energies of that passion from the base impulses

The arrival of Booth at Gibraltar, with what there of pride or fear; whereas it is as certain that love

befel him.

"THE adventures," continued Booth, "which happened to me from this day till my arrival at Gibraltar, are not worth recounting to you. After a voyage, the remainder of which was tolerably prosperous, we arrived in that garrison, the natural strength of which is so well known to the whole world.

"About a week after my arrival, it was my fortune to be ordered on a sally-party, in which my left leg was broke with a musquet ball; and I should most certainly have either perished miserably, or must have owed my preservation to some of the enemy, had not my faithful servant carried me off on his shoulders, and afterwards, with the assistance of one of his comrades, brought me back into the garrison.

"The agony of my wound was so great, that it threw me into a fever, from whence my surgeon apprehended much danger. I now began again to feel for my Amelia, and for myself on her account; and the disorder of my mind, occasioned by such melancholy contemplations, very highly aggravated the distemper of my body, insomuch that it would probably have proved fatal, had it not been for the friendship of one Captain James, an officer of our regiment, and an old acquaintance, who is undoubtedly one of the pleasantest companions, and one of the bestnatured men in the world. This worthy man, who had a head and a heart perfectly adequate to every office of friendship, staid with me al

exists in the mind of man, as that its opposite hatred doth, and the same reasons will equally prove the existence of the one as the existence of the other."

"I don't know indeed," replied the lady ; “ I never thought much about the matter. This I know, that when I read Mandevil, I thought all he said was true; and I have been often told, that he proves religion and virtue to be only mere names. However, if he denies there is any such thing as love, that is most certainly wrong. I am afraid I can give him the lie myself."

"I will join with you, madam, in that,” answered Booth, at any time."

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"Will you join with me?" answered she, looking eagerly at him." O Mr Booth, I know not what I was going to say.-What-where did you leave off?-I would not interrupt you—but I am impatient to know something."

"What, madam?" cries Booth, " if I can give you any satisfaction"

"No, no," said she, "I must hear all; I would not for the world break the thread of your story.-Besides, I am afraid to ask.—Pray, pray, sir, go on."

"Well, madam," cries Booth, "I think I was mentioning the extraordinary acts of friendship done me by Captain James; nor can I help taking notice of the almost unparalleled fidelity of poor Atkinson, (for that was my man's name,) who was not only constant in the assiduity of his attendance, but, during the time of my dan

ger, demonstrated a concern for me which I can hardly account for, as my prevailing on his captain to make him a serjeant was the first favour he ever received at my hands, and this did not happen till I was almost perfectly recovered of my broken leg. Poor fellow! I shall never forget the extravagant joy his halbert gave him; I remember it the more, because it was one of the happiest days of my own life; for it was upon this day that I received a letter from my dear Amelia, after a long silence, acquainting me, that she was out of all danger from her lying

in.

"I was now once more able to perform my duty; when (so unkind was the fortune of war) the second time I mounted the guard, I received a violent contusion from the bursting of a bomb. I was felled to the ground, where I lay breathless by the blow, till honest Atkinson came to my assistance, and conveyed me to my room, where a surgeon immediately attended me.

"The injury I had now received was much more dangerous, in my surgeon's opinion, than the former; it caused me to spit blood, and was attended with a fever, and other bad symptoms; so that very fatal consequences were apprehended.

"In this situation the image of my Amelia haunted me day and night, and the apprehensions of never seeing her more were so intolerable, that I had thoughts of resigning my commission, and returning home, weak as I was, that I might have, at least, the satisfaction of dying in the arms of my love. Captain James, however, persisted in dissuading me from any such resolution. He told me, my honour was too much concerned, attempted to raise my hopes of recovery to the utmost of his power; but chiefly he prevailed on me by suggesting, that if the worst which I apprehended should happen, it was much better for Amelia that she should be absent than present in so melancholy an hour. I know,' cried he, the extreme joy which must arise in you from meeting again with Amelia, and the comfort of expiring in her arms; but consider what she herself must endure upon the dreadful occasion, and you would not wish to purchase any happiness at the price of so much pain to her. This argument at length prevailed on me; and it was, after many long debates, resolved, that she should not even know my present condition, till my doom either for life or death was absolutely fixed."

"Oh heavens! how great! how generous!" cries Miss Matthews. "Booth, thou art a noble fellow; and I scarce think there is a woman upon earth worthy so exalted a passion."

Booth made a modest answer to the compliment which Miss Matthews had paid him. This drew more civilities from the lady, and these again more acknowledgments. All which we shall pass by, and proceed with our history.

CHAP. VI.

Containing matters which will please some readers.

"Two months and more had I continued in a state of uncertainty, sometimes with more flattering, and sometimes with more alarming symptoms, when one afternoon poor Atkinson came running into my room, all pale and out of breath, and begged me not to be surprised at his news. I asked him eagerly what was the matter, and if it was any thing concerning Amelia ?—I had scarce uttered the dear name, when she herself rushed into the room, and ran hastily to me, crying, 'Yes, it is, it is your Amelia herself."

"There is nothing so difficult to describe, and generally so dull when described, as scenes of excessive tenderness.'

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"Can you think so?" says Miss Matthews; "surely there is nothing so charming!-O! Mr Booth, our sex is d-ned by the want of tenderness in yours.-O were they all like you-certainly no man was ever your equal."

"Indeed, madam," cries Booth, "you honour me too much.-But-well-when the first transports of our meeting were over, Amelia began gently to chide me for having concealed my illness from her; for in three letters which I had writ her since the accident had happened, there was not the least mention of it, or any hint given by which she could possibly conclude I was otherwise than in perfect health. And when I had excused myself, by assigning the true reason, she cried, O Mr Booth! and do you know so little of your Amelia as to think I could or would survive you!-Would it not be better for one dreadful sight to break my heart all at once, than to break it by degrees?-O, Billy! can any thing pay me for the loss of this embrace !'-But I ask your pardon-how ridiculous doth my fondness appear in your eyes!"

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"How often," answered she, " shall I assert the contrary?-What would you have me say, Mr Booth ? shall I tell you I envy Mrs Booth of all the women in the world? would you be lieve me if I did? I hope you-What am I saying!-Pray make no farther apology, but go on.'

"After a scene," continued he, " too tender to be conceived by many, Amelia informed me, that she had received a letter from an unknown hand, acquainting her with my misfortune, and advising her, if she ever desired to see me more, to come directly to Gibraltar. She said, she should not have delayed a moment after receiving this letter, had not the same ship brought her one from me, written with rather more than usual gaiety, and in which there was not the least mention of my indisposition. This, she said, greatly puzzled her and her mother, and the

worthy divine endeavoured to persuade her to give credit to my letter, and to impute the other to a species of wit with which the world greatly abounds. This consists entirely in doing various kinds of mischief to our fellow-creatures, by belying one, deceiving another, exposing a third, and drawing in a fourth to expose himself; in short, by making some the objects of laughter, others of contempt; and indeed, not seldom, by subjecting them to very great inconveniencies, perhaps to ruin, for the sake of a jest.

"Mrs Harris and the Doctor derived the letter from this species of wit. Miss Betty, however, was of a different opinion, and advised poor Amelia to apply to an officer, whom the governor had sent over in the same ship, by whom the report of my illness was so strongly confirm ed, that Amelia immediately resolved on her

voyage.

"I had a great curiosity to know the author of this letter; but not the least trace of it could be discovered. The only person with whom I lived in any great intimacy was Captain James; and he, madam, from what I have already told you, you will think to be the last person I could suspect; besides, he declared upon his honour that he knew nothing of the matter, and no man's honour is, I believe, more sacred. There was, indeed, an ensign of another regiment who knew my wife, and who had sometimes visited me in my illness; but he was a very unlikely man to interest himself much in any affairs which did not concern him; and he too declared he knew nothing of it."

"And did you never discover this secret?"

cried Miss Matthews.

"Never to this day," answered Booth.

"I fancy," said she, "I could give a shrewd guess. What so likely as that Mrs Booth, when you left her, should have given her foster-brother orders to send her word of whatever befel you?-Yet stay-that could not be neither, for then she would not have doubted whether she should leave dear England on the receipt of the letter. No, it must have been by some other means—yet that, I own, appeared extremely natural to me; for, if I had been left by such a husband, I think I should have pursued the same method."

"No, madam," cried Booth, " it must have been conveyed by some other channel; for my Amelia, I am certain, was entirely ignorant of the manner; and as for poor Atkinson, I am convinced he would not have ventured to take such a step without acquainting me. Besides, the poor fellow had, I believe, such a regard for my wife, out of gratitude for the favours she had done his mother, that I make no doubt he was highly rejoiced at her absence from my melancholy scene. Well, whoever writ it, is a matter very immaterial; yet as it seemed so odd and unaccountable an incident, I could not help mentioning it.

"From the time of Amelia's arrival, nothing remarkable happened till my perfect recovery, unless I should observe her remarkable behaviour, so full of care and tenderness that it was perhaps without a parallel."

"O no, Mr Booth," cries the lady ;-" it is fully equalled, I am sure, by your gratitude. There is nothing, I believe, so rare as gratitude in your sex, especially in husbands. So kind a remembrance is, indeed, more than a return to such an obligation: for where is the mighty obligation which a woman confers, who, being possessed of an inestimable jewel, is so kind to herself as to be careful and tender of it? I do not say this to lessen your opinion of Mrs Booth. I have no doubt but that she loves you as well as she is capable: but I would not have you think so meanly of our sex, as to imagine there are not a thousand women susceptible of true tenderness towards a meritorious man.-Believe me, Mr Booth, if I had received such an account of an accident having happened to such a husband, a mother and a parson would not have held me a moment. I should have leaped into the first fishing-boat I could have found, and bid defiance to the winds and waves.-O there is no true tenderness but in a woman of spirit. I would not be understood all this while to reflect on Mrs Booth. I am only defending the cause of my sex; for, upon my soul, such compliments to a wife are a satire on all the rest of womankind."

"Sure you jest, Miss Matthews," answered Booth, with a smile. "However, if you please, I will proceed in my story."

CHAP. VII.

The Captain, continuing his Story, recounts some particulars which, we doubt not, to many good people will appear unnatural.

"I was scarce sooner recovered from my indisposition than Amelia herself fell ill. This, I am afraid, was occasioned by the fatigues which I could not prevent her from undergoing on my account; for as my disease went off with violent sweats, during which the surgeon strictly ordered that I should lie by myself, my Amelia could not be prevailed upon to spend many hours in her own bed. During my restless fits she would sometimes read to me several hours together; indeed it was not without difficulty that she ever quitted my bed-side. These fatigues, added to the uneasiness of her mind, overpowered her weak spirits, and threw her into one of the worst disorders that can possibly attend a woman; a disorder very common among the ladies, and our physicians have not agreed upon its name; some call it the fever on the spirits, some a nervous fever, some the vapours, and some the hysterics."

"O say no more," crics Miss Matthews, "I

pity you, I pity you from my soul. A man had better be plagued with all the curses of Egypt than with a vapourish wife."

"Pity me, madam !" answered Booth; "pity rather that dear creature, who, from her love and care of my unworthy self, contracted a distemper, the horrors of which are scarce to be imagined. It is indeed a sort of complication of all diseases together, with almost madness added to them. In this situation, the siege being at an end, the governor gave me leave to attend my wife to Montpelier, the air of which was judged to be most likely to restore her to health. Upon this occasion she wrote to her mother to desire a remittance, and set forth the melancholy condition of her health, and her necessity for money, in such terms as would have touched any bosom not void of humanity, though a stranger to the unhappy sufferer. Her sister answered it, and I believe I have a copy of the answer in my pocket. I keep it by me as a curiosity, and you would think it more so, could I shew you my Amelia's letter." He then searched his pocketbook, and finding the letter, among many others, he read it in the following words:

"DEAR SISTER,

"My mamma being much disordered, hath commanded me to tell you, she is both shocked and surprised at your extraordinary request, or, as she chuses to call it, order for money. You know, my dear, she says, that your marriage with this red-coat man was entirely against her consent, and the opinion of all your family, (I am sure I may here include myself in that number;) and yet, after this fatal act of disobedience, she was prevailed on to receive you as her child; not however, nor are you so to understand it, as the favourite which you was before. She forgave you; but this was as a Christian and a parent; still preserving in her own mind a just sense of your disobedience, and a just resentment on that account. And yet, notwithstanding this resentment, she desires you to remember, that when you a second time ventured to oppose her authority, and nothing would serve you but taking a ramble (an indecent one, I can't help saying,) after your fellow, she thought fit to shew the excess of a mother's tenderness, and furnished you with no less than fifty pounds for your foolish voyage. How can she then be otherwise than surprised at your present demand? which, should she be so weak to comply with, she must expect to be every month repeated, in order to supply the extravagance of a young rakish officer.-You say she will compassionate your sufferings; yes, surely she doth greatly compassionate them, and so do I too, though you was neither so kind nor so civil as to suppose I should. But I forgive all your slights to me, as well now as formerly. Nay, I not only forgive, but I pray daily for you. But, dear sister, what could you expect less than what

hath happened? you should have believed your friends, who were wiser and older than you. I do not here mean myself, though I own I am eleven months and some odd weeks your superior; though, had I been younger, I might, perhaps, have been able to advise you for wisdom, and what some may call beauty, do not always go together. You will not be offended at this: for I know in your heart you have always held your head above some people, whom, perhaps, other people have thought better of; but why do I mention what I scorn so much ?-No, my dear sister, Heaven forbid it should ever be said of me, that I value myself upon my face,-not but, if I could believe men perhaps but I hate and despise men-you know I do, my dear, and I wish you had despised them as much; but jacta est alea, as the Doctor says.-You are to make the best of your fortune. What fortune I mean my mamma may please to give you; for you know all is in her power. Let me advise you then to bring your mind to your circumstances, and remember (for I can't help writing it, as it is for your own good) the vapours are a distemper which very ill become a knapsack. Remember, my dear, what you have done; remember what my mamma hath done; remember we have something of yours to keep, and do not consider yourself as an only child-No, nor as a favourite child; but be pleased to remember,

"Dear sister,

"Your most affectionate sister,

"And most obedient humble servant, "E. HARRIS."

"O brave Miss Betty!" cried Miss Matthews; "I always held her in high esteem; but I protest she exceeds even what I could have expect ed from her."

"This letter, madam," cries Booth, "you will believe was an excellent cordial for my poor wife's spirits. So dreadful indeed was the effect it had upon her, that as she had read it in my absence, I found her at my return home in the most violent fits; and so long was it before she recovered her senses, that I despaired of that blest event ever happening, and my own senses very narrowly escaped from being sacrificed to my despair. However, she came at last to herself, and I began to consider of every means of carrying her immediately to Montpelier, which was now become much more necessary than be fore.

"Though I was greatly shocked at the bar. barity of the letter, yet I apprehended no very ill consequence from it; for as it was believed all over the army that I had married a great for tune, I had received offers of money, if I wanted it, from more than one. Indeed, I might have easily carried my wife to Montpelier at any time; but she was extremely averse to the voy age, being desirous of our returning to England,

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