Sate conning some rare scroll from Tritheim's shelves, Much wondering notes so simple could divert
My mind from study. Those were happy days! Respect all such as sing when all alone.
Fest. Scarcely alone-her children, you may guess, Are wild beside her
Unsettle the pure picture in my mind:
A girl-she was so perfect, so distinct . . .
No change, no change! Not but this added grace May blend and harmonize with its compeers, And Michal may become her motherhood; But 'tis a change-and I detest all change, And most a change in ought I loved long since! So Michal you have said she thinks of me?
Fest. O very proud will Michal be of you! Imagine how we sate, long winter-nights, Scheming and wondering-shaping your presumed Adventures, or devising their reward;
Shutting out fear with all the strength of hope. Though it was strange how, even when most secure In our domestic peace, a certain dim
And flitting shade could sadden all; it seemed A restlessness of heart, a silent yearning, A sense of something wanting, incomplete- Not to be put in words, perhaps avoided By mute consent-but, said or unsaid, felt To point to one so loved and so long lost. And then the hopes rose and shut out the fears—
How you would laugh should I recount them now! I still predicted your return at last,
With gifts beyond the greatest vaunt of all, All Tritheim's wondrous troop; did one of which Attain renown by any chance, I smiled— As well aware of who would prove his peer. Michal was sure some woman, long ere this, As beautiful as you were sage, had loved . . . Par. Far-seeing, truly, to discern so much In the fantastic projects and day-dreams
Well warranted our faith in this full noon!
Can I forget the anxious voice which said,
"Festus, have thoughts like these e'er shaped themselves "In other brains than mine-have their possessors "Existed in like circumstance-were they weak “As I—or ever constant from the first, "Despising youth's allurements, and rejecting "As spider-films the shackles I endure?
"Is there hope for me?"—and I answered grave As an acknowledged elder, calmer, wiser,
More gifted mortal. O you must remember,
These hands-nay, touch them, they are mine! Recall
With all the said recallings, times when thus
To lay them by your own ne'er turned you pale,
Most glorious, are they not?
Something must be subtracted from success
So wide, no doubt. He would be scrupulous, truly, Who should object such drawbacks. Still, still, Aureole, You are changed-very changed! 'Twere losing nothing To look well to it: you must not be stolen
From the enjoyment of your well-won meed.
Par. My friend! you seek my pleasure, past a doubt: By talking, not of me, but of yourself,
You will best gain your point.
Fest. All touching Michal and my children? Sure You know, by this, full well how Aennchen looks Gravely, while one disparts her thick brown hair; And Aureole's glee when some stray gannet builds Amid the birch-trees by the lake. Small hope Have I that he will honour, the wild imp, His namesake! Sigh not! 'tis too much to ask That all we love should reach the same proud fate. But you are very kind to humour me
By showing interest in my quiet life;
You, who of old could never tame yourself To tranquil pleasures, must at heart despise
Par. Festus, strange secrets are let out by Death, Who blabs so oft the follies of this world: And I am Death's familiar, as you know. I helped a man to die, some few weeks since, Warped even from his go-cart to one end— The living on princes' smiles, reflected from
A mighty herd of favourites. No mean trick He left untried; and truly wellnigh wormed All traces of God's finger out of him.
Then died, grown old; and just an hour before- Having lain long with blank and soulless eyes- He sate up suddenly, and with natural voice Said, that in spite of thick air and closed doors God told him it was June; and he knew well, Without such telling, harebells grew in June; And all that kings could ever give or take Would not be precious as those blooms to him. Just so, allowing I am passing wise,
It seems to me much worthier argument
Why pansies,* eyes that laugh, bear beauty's prize
From violets, eyes that dream-(your Michal's choice)— Than all fools find to wonder at in me,
Or in my fortunes: and be very sure
say this from no prurient restlessness— No self-complacency-itching to turn, Vary, and view its pleasure from all points, And, in this matter, willing other men Should argue and demonstrate to itself The realness of the very joy it tastes. What joy is better than the news of friends Whose memories were a solace to me oft, As mountain-baths to wild fowls in their flight? Yes, ofter than you wasted thought on me
* Citrinula (flammula) herba Paracelso multùm familiaris. DORN.
If you were sage, and rightly valued bliss! But there's no taming nor repressing hearts:
God knows I need such !—So you heard me speak? Fest. Speak? when?
When but this morning at my class?
There was noise and crowd enough. I saw you not.
Surely you know I am engaged to fill
The chair here?—that 'tis part of my proud fate To lecture to as many thick-sculled youths As please, each day, to throng the theatre, To my great reputation, and no small Danger of Basil's benches, long unused To crack beneath such honour?
I mingled with the throng: shall I avow
I had small care to listen ?-too intent
On gathering from the murmurs of the crowd A full corroboration of my hopes!
What can I learn about your powers? but they Know, care for nought beyond your actual state- Your actual value; and yet worship you!. Those various natures whom you sway as one!
But ere I go, be sure I shall attend . . .
Par. Stop, o' God's name: the thing's by no means yet
Past remedy! Shall I read this morning's work
-At least in substance? Nought so worth the gaining As an apt scholar! Thus then, with all due
Precision and emphasis-(you, besides, are clearly Guiltless of understanding a whit more
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