Fest. Such the aim, then. God sets before you: and 'tis doubtless need That he appoint no less the way of praise Than the desire to praise; for, though I hold With you, the setting forth such praise to be The natural end and service of a man,
And think such praise is best attained when man Attains the general welfare of his kind- Yet, this, the end, is not the instrument. Presume not to serve God apart from such Appointed channel as He wills shall gather Imperfect tributes-for that sole obedience Valued, perchance. He seeks not that his altars Blaze-careless how, so that they do but blaze. Suppose this, then that God selected you TO KNOW (heed well your answers, for my faith Shall meet implicitly what they affirm) I cannot think you dare annex to such Selection aught beyond a steadfast will, An intense hope, nor let your gifts create Scorn or neglect of ordinary means Conducive to success-make destiny
Dispense with man's endeavour. Now, dare you search Your inmost heart, and candidly avow
Whether you have not rather wild desire
For this distinction, than security
Of its existence; whether you discern
"The path to the fulfilment of your purpose
Clear as that purpose-and again, that purpose
Clear as your yearning to be singled out
For its pursuer. Dare you answer this?
Par. (After a pause.) No, I have nought to fear! Who well may know
The secret'st workings of my soul.
It be so ?-if indeed the strong desire
Eclipse the aim in me ?-if splendour break Upon the outset of my path alone, And duskest shade succeed?
Shall I require to my authentic mission
Than this fierce energy?—this instinct striving Because its nature is to strive ?-enticed
By the security of no broad course, With no success forever in its eyes!
How know I else such glorious fate my own, But in the restless irresistible force
"That works within me ? Is it for human will To institute such impulses ?-still less,
To disregard their promptings? What should I
Do, kept among you all; your loves, your cares, Your life-all to be mine? Be sure that God
Ne'er dooms to waste the strength He deigns impart ! Ask the gier-eagle why she stoops at once Into the vast and unexplored abyss,
What full-grown power informs her from the first, Why she not marvels, strenuously beating The silent boundless regions of the sky!
Be sure they sleep not whom God needs! Nor fear Their holding light His charge, when every hour That finds that charge delayed, is a new death. This for the faith in which I trust; and hence I can abjure so well the idle arts
These pedants strive to learn and teach; Black Arts, Great Works, the Secret and Sublime, forsooth- Let others prize: too intimate a tie
Connects me with our God! A sullen fiend To do my bidding, fallen and hateful sprites To help me what are these, at best, beside God helping, God directing everywhere, So that the earth shall yield her secrets up, And every object shall be charged to strike, Teach, gratify, her master God appoints ? And I am young, my Festus, happy and free! I can devote myself; I have a life
To give; I, singled out for this, the One!
Think, think; the wide east, where old Wisdom sprung⚫ The bright south, where she dwelt; the hopeful north, All are passed o'er-it lights on me! 'Tis time New hopes should animate the world, new light Should dawn from new revealings to a race
Weighed down so long, forgotten so long; so shall The heaven reserved for us, at last receive Creatures whom no unwonted splendours blind, But ardent to confront the unclouded blaze
Whose beams not seldom blessed their pilgrimage,
Not seldom glorified their life below.
Fest. My words have their old fate and make faint stand Against your glowing periods. Call this, truth
Why not pursue it in a fast retreat,
Some one of Learning's many palaces,
After approved example; seeking there
Calm converse with the great dead, soul to soul, Who laid up treasure with the like intent? -So lift yourself into their airy place, And fill out full their unfulfilled careers, Unravelling the knots their baffled skill Pronounced inextricable, true!—but left
Far less confused? A fresh eye, a fresh hand, Might do much at their vigour's waning-point; Succeeding with new-breathed and earnest force, As at old games a runner snatched the torch From runner still: this way success might be. But you have coupled with your enterprise An arbitrary self-repugnant scheme
Of seeking it in strange and untried paths. What books are in the desert? writes the sea The secret of her yearning in vast caves Where yours will fall the first of human feet ? Has Wisdom sate there and recorded aught You press to read? Why turn aside from her To visit, where her vesture never glanced, Now-solitudes consigned to barrenness
By God's decree, which who shall dare impugn? Now-ruins where she paused but would not stay. Old ravaged cities that, renouncing her,
She called an endless curse on, so it came- Or, worst of all, now-men you visit, men, Ignoblest troops that never heard her voice, Or hate it, men without one gift from Rome Or Athens, these shall Aureole's teachers be! Rejecting past example, practice, precept, Aidless 'mid these he thinks to stand alone: Thick like a glory round the Stagyrite Your rivals throng, the sages: here stand you! Whate'er you may protest, knowledge is not Paramount in your love; or for her sake
You would collect all help from every source- Rival or helper, friend, foe, all would merge
In the broad class of those who show ed her haunts, And those who showed them not.
Par. What shall I say? Festus, from childhood I have been possessed By a fire-by a true fire, or faint or fierce, As from without some master, so it seemed, Repressed or urged its current: this but ill Expresses what would convey-but rather I will believe an angel ruled me thus,
Than that my soul's own workings, own high nature, So became manifest. I knew not then
What whispered in the evening, and spoke out At midnight. If some mortal, born too soon, Were laid away in some great trance-the ages Coming and going all the while-till dawned His true time's advent, and could then record The words they spoke who kept watch by his bed,--
Then I might tell more of the breath so light Upon my eyelids, and the fingers warm Among my hair. Youth is confused; yet never So dull was I but, when that spirit passed, I turned to him, scarce consciously, as turns A water-snake when fairies cross his sleep. And having this within me and about me While Einsiedeln, its mountains, lakes, and woods Confined me-what oppressive joy was mine
When life grew plain, and I first viewed the thronged, The ever-moving concourse of mankind! Believe that ere I joined them-ere I knew The purpose of the pageant, or the place Consigned to me within its ranks-while yet Wonder was freshest and delight most pure- 'Twas then that least supportable appeared A station with the brightest of the crowd, A portion with the proudest of them all! And from the tumult in my breast, this only Could I collect-that I must thenceforth die, Or elevate myself far, far above
The gorgeous spectacle. I seemed to long At once to trample on, yet save mankind- To make some unexampled sacrifice
In their behalf-to wring some wondrous good From heaven or earth for them-to perish, winning Eternal weal in the act as who should dare Pluck out the angry thunder from its cloud, That, all its gathered flame discharged on him, No storm might threaten summer's azure sleep : Yet never to be mixed with men so much As to have part even in my own work-share In my own largess. Once the feat achieved, I would withdraw from their officious praise, Would gently put aside their profuse thanks⚫ Like some knight traversing a wilderness, Who, on his way, may chance to free a tribe Of desert-people from their dragon-foe; When all the swarthy race press round to kiss His feet, and choose him for their king, and yield Their poor tents, pitched among the sand-hills, for His realm; and he points, smiling, to his scarf, Heavy with riveled gold, his burgonet,
Gay set with twinkling stones-and to the east, Where these must be displayed!
Fest. No more about your nature, "which first shrank "From all that marked you out apart from men!"
Par. I touch on that; these words but analyse That first mad impulse-'twas as brief as fond; For as I gazed again upon the show,
I soon distinguished here and there a shape Palm-wreathed and radiant, forehead and full eye. Well pleased was I their state should thus at once Interpret my own thoughts :-"Behold the clue "To all," I rashly said, " and what I pine "To do, these have accomplished: we are peers! "They know, and therefore rule: I, too, will know!" You were beside me, Festus, as you say;
You saw me plunge in their pursuits whom Fame Is lavish to attest the lords of mind;
Not pausing to make sure the prize in view Would satiate my cravings when obtained-
But since they strove I strove. Then came a slow And strangling failure. We aspired alike, Yet not the meanest plodder Tritheim sch ools But faced me, all-sufficient, all-content, Or staggered only at his own strong wits; While I was restless, nothing satisfied,
Distrustful, most perplexed. I would slur over That struggle; suffice it, that I loathed myself As weak compared with them, yet felt somehow A mighty power was brooding, taking shape Within me and this lasted till one night When, as I sate revolving it and more,
A still voice from without said -"See'st thou not, "Desponding child, whence came defeat and loss?
"Even from thy strength. Consider: hast thou gazed Presumptuously on Wisdom's countenance,
"No veil between; and can thy hands which falter Unguided by thy brain the mighty sight
"Continues to absorb, pursue their task
"On earth like these around thee-what their sense
"Which radiance ne'er distracted, clear descries?
"If thou wouldst share their fortune, choose their life, “Unfed by splendour. Let each task present
"Its petty good to thee. Waste not thy gifts "In profitless waiting for the gods' descent, "But have some idol of thine own to dress
"With their array. Know, not for knowing's sake, "But to become a star to men for ever.
"Know, for the gain it gets, the praise it brings, "The wonder it inspires, the love it breeds. "Look one step onward, and secure that step." And I smiled as one never smiles but once; Then first discovering my own aim's extent,
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