How far was Würzburg, with its church and spire, And garden-walls, and all things they contain, From that look's far alighting?
Par. I but spoke And looked alike from simple joy, to see The beings I love best, shut in so well From all rude chances like to be my lot, That, when afar, my weary spirit,-disposed To lose awhile its care in soothing thoughts
Of them, their pleasant features, looks, and words,— Need never hesitate, nor apprehend
Encroaching trouble may have reached them too, Nor have recourse to Fancy's busy aid To fashion even a wish in their behalf Beyond what they possess already here; But, unobstructed, may at once forget Itself in them, assured how well they are. Beside, this Festus knows, he thinks me one Whom quiet and its charms attract in vain, One scarce aware of all the joys I quit, Too fill'd with airy hopes to make account Of soft delights which free hearts garner up: Whereas, behold how much our sense of all That's beauteous proves alike! When Festus learns That every common pleasure of the world Affects me as himself; that I have just
As varied appetites for joy derived
From common things; a stake in life, in short, Like his; a stake which rash pursuit of aims That life affords not, would as soon destroy ;- He may convince himself, that, this in view, I shall act well advised: and last, because,
Though heaven and earth, and all things, were at stake, Sweet Michal must not weep, our parting eve!
Fest. True: and the eve is deepening, and we sit As little anxious to begin our talk
As though to-morrow I could open it
As we paced arm-in-arm the cheerful town
At sun-dawn; and continue it by fits
(Old Tritheim busied with his class the while)
In that dim chamber where the noon-streaks peer Half frightened by the awful tomes around; And here at home unbosom all the rest
From even-blush to midnight: but, to-morrow! . . Have I full leave to tell my inmost mind?
We two were brothers, and henceforth the world Will rise between us :-all my freest mind? 'Tis the last night, dear Aureole !
Devise some test of love-some arduous feat
To be performed for you-say on! If night Be spent the while, the better! My wondrous plans, and dreams, and hopes, and fears, Have-never wearied you . . . oh, no! Recall, and never vividly as now,
Your true affection, born when Einsiedeln And its green hills were all the world to us, And still increasing to this night, which ends My further stay at Würzburg. . . Oh, one day
You shall be very proud! Say on, dear friends ! Fest. In truth? "Tis for my proper peace, indeed, Rather than yours; for vain all projects seem To stay your course: I said my latest hope Is fading even now. A story tells
Of some far embassy despatched to buy The favour of an eastern king, and how
The gifts they offered proved but dazzling dust Shed from the ore-beds native to his clime: Just so, the value of repose and love
I meant should tempt you, better far than I You seem to comprehend-and yet desist No whit from projects where repose nor love Have part.
Par. Once more? Alas! as I forebode! Fest. A solitary briar the bank puts forth To save our swan's nest floating out to sea.
Par. Dear Festus, hear me. What is it you wish? That I should lay aside my heart's pursuit, Abandon the sole ends for which I live, Reject God's great commission--and so die! You bid me listen for your true love's sake: Yet how has grown that love? Even in a long And patient cherishing of the selfsame spirit It now would quell; as though a mother hoped To stay the lusty manhood of the child
Once weak upon her knees. I was not born Informed and fearless from the first, but shrank From aught which marked me out apart from men: I would have lived their life, and died their death, Lost in their ranks, eluding destiny:
But you first guided me through doubt and fear, Taught me to know mankind and know myself; And now that I am strong and full of hope, That, from my soul, I can reject all aims
Save those your earnest words made plain to me; Now, that I touch the brink of my design,
When I would have a triumph in their eyes, A glad cheer in their voices-Michal weeps, And Festus ponders gravely!
Beforehand all this evening's conference! "Tis this way, Michal, that he uses: first, Or he declares, or I, the leading points
Of our best scheme of life, what is man's end, And what's God's will-no two faiths e'er agreed. As his with mine: next, each of us allows. Faith should be acted on as best we may : Accordingly I venture to submit
A plan, in lack of better, for pursuing
The path which God's will seems to authorize : Well-he discerns much good in it, avows This motive worthy, that hope plausible, A danger here, to be avoided—there, An oversight to be repaired: at last Our two minds go together—all the good Approved by him, I gladly recognize; All he counts bad, I thankfully discard; And nought forbids my looking up at last For some stray comfort in his cautious brow- When, lo! I learn that, spite of all, there lurks Some innate and inexplicable germ
Of failure in my schemes; so that at last It all amounts to this-the sovereign proof That we devote ourselves to God, is seen In living just as though there were no God: A life which, prompted by the sad and blind Lusts of the world, Festus abhors the most- But which these tenets sanctify at once; Though to less subtle wits it seems the same, Consider it how they may.
Is it so, Festus? He speaks so calmly and kindly—is it so ?
Par. Reject those glorious visions of God's love
And man's design; laugh loud that God should send
Vast longings to direct us; say how soon
Power satiates these, or lust, or gold; I know
The world's cry well, and how to answer it! But this ambiguous warfare
Fest. That you will grant no last leave to your friend To urge it ?-for his sake, not yours? I wish To send my soul in good hopes after you;
Never to sorrow that uncertain words, Erringly apprehended-a new creed, Ill understood-begot rash trust in you, And shared in your undoing.
Hold or renounce: but meanwhile blame me not Because I dare to act on your own views,
Nor shrink when they point onward, nor espy
A peril where they most ensure success.
Fest. Prove that to me-but that! Prove you abide Within their warrant, nor presumptuous boast God's labour laid on you; prove, all you covet
A mortal may expect; and, most of all,
Prove the strange course you now affect, will lead To its attainment-and I bid you speed,
Nay, count the minutes till you venture forth!
You smile; but I had gathered from slow thought- Much musing on the fortunes of my friend— Matter I deemed could not be urged in vain : But it all leaves me at my need in shreds And fragments I must venture what remains.
Mich. Ask at once, Festus, wherefore he should scorn Fest. Stay, Michal: Aureole, I speak guardedly And gravely, knowing well, whate'er your error, This is no ill-considered choice of yours-
No sudden fancy of an ardent boy.
Not from your own confiding words alone Am I aware your passionate heart long since Gave birth to, nourished, and at length matures This scheme. I will not speak of Einsiedeln, Where I was born your elder by some years Only to watch you fully from the first: In all beside, our mutual tasks were fixed Even then-'twas mine to have you in my view As you had your own soul and those intents Which filled it when, to crown your dearest wish, With a tumultuous heart, you left with me Our childhood's home to join the favoured few Whom, here at Würzburg, Tritheim deigns to teach A portion of his lore: and not the best
Of those so favoured, whom you now despise, Came earnest as you cas: resolved, like you, To grasp all, and retain all, and deserve By patient toil a wide renown like his. And this new ardour which supplants the old, I watched too; 'twas significant and strange, In one matched to his soul's content at length With rivals in the search for Wisdom's prize,
To see the sudden pause, the total change; From contest, the transition to repose- From pressing onward as his fellows pressed, To a blank idleness; yet most unlike The dull stagnation of a soul, content, Once foiled, to leave betimes a thriveless quest. That careless bearing, free from all pretence Even of contempt for what it ceased to seek- Smiling humility, praising much, yet waiving What it professed to praise-though not so well Maintained but that rare outbreaks, fierce as brief, Revealed the hidden scorn, as quickly curbed- That ostentatious show of past defeat, That ready acquiescence in contempt, I deemed no other than the letting go His shivered sword, of one about to spring Upon his foe's throat; but it was not thus: Not that way looked your brooding purpose then For after-signs disclosed, what you confirmed, That you prepared to task to the uttermost Your strength, in furtherance of a certain aim, Which-while it bore the name your rivals gave Their own most puny efforts was so vast In scope that it included their best flights, Combined them, and desired to gain one prize In place of many, the secret of the world, Of man, and man's true purpose, path, and fate : —That you, not nursing as a mere vague dream This purpose, with the sages of the Past, Have struck upon a way to this, if all
You trust be true, which following, heart and soul, You, if a man may, dare aspire to KNOW: And that this aim shall differ from a host
Of aims alike in character and kind, Mostly in this, to seek its own reward
In itself only, not an alien end
To blend therewith; no hope, nor fear, nor joy, Nor woe, to elsewhere move you, but this pure Devotion to sustain you or betray:
You shall not state it thus:
I should not differ from the dreamy crew
You speak of. I profess no other share In the selection of my lot, than this.
A ready answer to the will of God Who summons me to be his organ: all
Whose innate strength supports them shall succeed No better than your sages.
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