with the influences of thy Spirit, shew me the infinite evil of sin, and give me true faith in Jesus Christ."

SELF EXAMINATION PRAYER FOR PARDON

SANCTIFICATION.

Feb. 6, 1803.-"I have a part to act on the great stage of life for him who made me, and to him must give an account. Twenty-three years have nearly elapsed since I began this part. How have I performed it? O my soul, blush and be ashamed to answer this important question as thou must. The duties I owe to God I have neglected. I have refused to love him, though he is worthy of the highest love and adoration of every created being,—from the seraph that burns at his throne, to the meanest mortal worm of the dust. I have refused obedience to him, though my rightful sovereign. I have erred and strayed from` him, and have been glad when he was farthest from my thoughts. The duties I owe to Jesus Christ, as my Saviour whom I have professed to follow, I have neglected in such a manner as might bring odium on his religion. The duties I owe to my fellow creatures I have basely neglected. Superiors, inferiors and equals have not received from me

what I owe them, and what my conscience dictates I should perform. O almighty God, I acknowledge my sinfulness. Thou mightest justly cut me down as a cumberer of thy ground. But where shall I go but unto thee? O grant me the influences of thy Spirit, to convince me of sin; to illuminate my understanding, that I may contemplate thy character and perfection; to make me feel more sensibly my distance from thee; the ruins of my nature; the depravity of my heart, and the odiousness of sin, as opposed to the purity of thy nature. Restore thy lost image upon my soul; write thy laws and imprint thy statutes upon my heart; renew my nature; sanctify all the powers and faculties of my soul; give me to feel my wretchedness; give me faith in the merits of Christ, and for his sake accept me."

LAMENTS SINS OF THE TONGUE-PRAYER

GRACE.

FOR

March 12.-"O my soul, take a view of the sins and follies into which thou hast fallen since the above was written, that thou mayest the better avoid them for time to come. prayer frequently omitted-consequently many errors in my conduct towards my fellow crea

tures.

Secret

O, detraction has dwelt on my tongue!

I have secretly wounded the reputation of my neighbor; and though at first I only assented to what others said, yet by degrees was led to mention several things to the disadvantage of the absent-which perhaps were true, yet why should I repeat them? By so doing, I only impressed them more strongly on my mind, which lessened my love and esteem for the person, and injured my own happiness. O let me learn in future to be as tender of the reputation of an injured brother as of his life; and rather be thought unsocial than speak to the injury of any. O my God, look with a pitying eye on the weakest and most unworthy of thy creatures, and for Christ's sake extend me thy gracious aid."

CHAPTER III.

HER MARRIAGE, AND QUALIFICATIONS FOR HER

STATION.

IN September, 1803, she was united in marriage with the Rev. Dr.MCFARLAND,* and immediately removed from Boston to the residence of her husband, in Concord. Her views previous to entering into this connection were such as became a young christian, and may properly be mentioned, as worthy of imitation. Under date of July 3, 1803, she writes in her diary—

"Now it seems the will of Providence that I should connect myself with one who appears to be his real and faithful servant. This great change I hope I have maturely deliberated upon, and think I have followed the leadings of Providence in deciding. But O! I dread, by being placed in a more conspicuous station, to bring greater odium on religion.

"O almighty God, whose omnipresent eye

* She was the third wife of Dr. McFarland. He first married Miss CLARISSA DWIGHT, of Belchertown, Mass., who died October 23, 1799, of puerperal fever, aged 32 years-her child surviving but a few days. His second wife was Miss NANCY DWIGHT, of the same place, who died in about two months after their marriage. They were both excellent women, and much esteemed.

witnesses this transaction, I entreat thee to look with pity upon me, through Jesus, thy son, and accept my thanks for the blessing of the friendship of thy servant; and teach me my dependence upon thee for the continuance of this and every other blessing. In thine own time perfect what appears to be thy begun work concerning us-unite us in the nearest and tenderest connection.

"But O, let me appeal to thee: Is not the language of my heart, Bring me not into it, unless thou make me a blessing to thy servant, and wilt enable me to honor thy name. 'Hold thou me up, and I shall be safe.' Come over the mountains of my guilt and the hills of my iniquity, and grant me thy blessing for thy great name's sake, through Jesus Christ. Accept the dedication that I make of myself to thee; of all that I am and have, to advance thy glory. Give or deny me what thou seest best for me; only deny me not thy favor, and form me for thyself."

Entering the marriage relation with such views, we should be greatly disappointed were she not a blessing' to her husband and an 'honor' to religion. Her new connection placed her in the midst of a large parish, which then