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I believe I was a very naughty child, and a very strange "young person;" and, I suppose, at that time I had not grown any better, for I remember that I laughed heartily to see the very little mouse brought forth by the mountain.

The next day we met the "new people" at the stationer's shop, and my pretty friend's little person, and not very large eyes, grew quite immense in their efforts to carry out the haughty contempt of their mistress. What she might have intended to accomplish by her majestic looks I don't know, but if it was to overawe the party, she certainly and signally failed, for the only expression upon their countenances was that of perfect indifference,-they did not even appear to know that anybody at all unusual was present. During my short visit to T many opportunities were offered for the exercise of hospitality to these new people," but the Mrs. White of the place had set them down as "nobodies;" and every one, even the medical man who had been called in to prescribe for the lady's cough, avoided them in all possible ways. If they had come direct from Constantinople when the plague was raging there, and had carried about with them a small stock of the malady for the private use of their friends, they could not have met with less civility:-" What could they want there?T―― was not a watering-place, not a manufacturing town, nor the scene of a fashionable murder, nor the site of a picturesque ruin, nor even the birth-place of a celebrated man, but à quiet little town without anything to account for the visits of strangers; and as the inhabitants were quite satisfied with their own society, and did not want to break through their quiet ways, why-they did not mean to say anything against these people-they might be respectable, certainly,-only they would rather not commit themselves by knowing them! Ah, dear, what a number of Little Pedlingtons there are in the world! Heaven help the dear simple people !-the fly riding upon the coachwheel and apologizing for the dust he made, was not a whit more innocent of the mischief, than they were of doing, by their countenance and notice, the tremendous injury to society which they sought so carefully to avoid!

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Mrs. White of T- might have patronized all the itinerant vagabondage of England, without one creature out of T- ever being the wiser. When I left the place, things were much in the same state as when I had first arrived there, except that the new people" had apparently given up all attempts to be social, and appeared sufficient to themselves. Six months after, the inhabitants were awakened by the merry bells pealing from all the churches in the neighbourhood; and about mid-day a chariot, drawn by four horses with coronets upon their harness, and cognizances upon the sleeves of the post-boys, whirled along the little street from the London road, and stopped at the house of the "new people." The whole place was aroused; and when, after a little time, a similar carriage followed, and the new lady

and gentlemen entered and drove off, the popular excitement was at its height. The whole business was explained in the evening by the arrival at the inn of || a London upholsterer, who told the mortified landlord that the "new people," so carefully shunned by the town, were no other than the Earl and Countess of

—, with their sons, to whom, as he knew very well, most of the property in T-- belonged, and who | had, during the tedious chancery suit which had been pending for so many years, chosen to sink a title they had not then the means to support, and call themselves by the surname of the family. Upon the favourable decision of the chancellor, they had resumed the title, and entered upon possession of the estates, of which one of the principal, was the castle, park, and farms, situated a mile from T——, and he was now come down to refit the castle for their reception. Poor dear T--ites! how crest-fallen they were! How blank and foolish looked their Mrs. White! And if anything could have made the matter more ridiculous, it was the indifference with which the apologies they had the bad taste to offer, were received. The " new people" had just returned from the continent, and, accustomed to the courteous and easy manners of the south, were surprised at the strange ways of their own land. They had tried to conciliate their neighbours, but, finding it useless, very soon gave up the attempt, setting down the people as harmless egotists then thought no more about them.

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This little occurrence in my life may be matched ! with many a similar one in the experience of most of us; and, although all mysterious strangers do not turn out to be Earls and Countesses, yet, in nine hundred and ninety-nine cases out of every thousand, they do turn out decent, respectable people, quite as worthy and quite as knowable as ourselves; and we should, in common justice, try to remember, that when they are willing to know us, they take us exactly as much upon trust as we do them, and have at least as much at stake as ourselves in a new acquaintance. We owners of houses, and holders of county-town dignities, may be unexceptionable, but we may not. Dear English people, why, then, cannot you be more kindly disposed to your own countrymen? must the Arab still afford you an example of hospi tality? Why will you dance all night long at a Polish ball, and walk out your gutta percha shoes in getting up subscriptions for the famishing Irish, and yet treat your own people" as if they were convicted swindlers, or suspected "familiars?" There must be something wofully wrong in the constitution of your minds, needing a keen eye to discover, and a resolute will to cure. Do, pray, set about this work at once, or, crying out, as you all do, for reform abroad, you will be laughed at for not seeing the want of it at home-and " Physician, cure thyself," be the contemptuous reply to all your expostulations and advice. And, surely, no time in the year can be more appropriate for the formation of new and good resolves than this, when the joy bells of the whole

mas time, and the glad new year has scarcely yet died in echo among the hills, and ought to have left upon our hearts the holy memories of those lessons of love and goodwill to all mankind, the earthly advent of which their stirring music strove feebly to commemorate. With the memory of a Saviour born into a world of sin, fresh in our minds, how shall we dare to be churlish to our fellow-men? This commandment has he left unto us, that as He has loved us, so should we love one another.

Christian world have been welcoming the blessed Christ- | except when it is thrust upon their notice by their passions or affections. The growth or change of their own bodies, hearts, and minds, and of the bodies, hearts, and minds immediately connected with them, in their mortal state, is all that most people see or care about in this great argument. This is by no means an unimportant branch of it, on that very account. From it may be evolved a theory of human life and conduct, which would occupy a great metaphysician half his life to construct and elucidate; and therefore it is not possible for an ordinary person to do more than glance at the subject in a short article like the present. We would merely offer a few words indicating the practical importance of marking the nice distinctions between Change and Growth in our daily conduct and judgment in this life.

GROWTH AND CHANGE.
J. M. W.

"I well consider all that ye have sayd,
And find that all things stedfastnes doe hate,
And changed be; yet being rightly wayd,
They are not changèd from their first estate,
But by their change their being doe dilate,
And, turning to themselves at length again,
Doe work their own perfection so by fate:
Then over them change doth not rule and raigne,
But they reign over change, and doe their states maintain."
Faerie Queen.

Ir the other cantos of Spenser's "Faerie Queen had ever been published, or even written, the world would probably be in possession of a first-rate philosophical disquisition upon the essential difference between Growth and Change; a disquisition which, we venture to say, would be none the less subtle and philosophically true for being in the highest degree picturesque and intrinsically poetical. Spenser had fairly entered upon the subject in the two cantos appended to the sixth book, which are numbered VI. and VII, and are entitled "Two Cantos of Mutabilitie, which both for forme aud matter appeare to be parcell of some following book of the Faerie Queene, under the Legend of Constance." There are likewise two stanzas of a third, in which the subject is continued. It is more than probable that this book of the Legend of Constance would have continued Spenser's speculations on the fixed laws of Change throughout the universe. In these cantos upon mutability, indeed, the subject is begun to be laid out in all its vastness. In the stanza which we have taken as an introduction to our few words on a minor point of the subject, the grounds of the whole argument are summed up. Dame Nature addresses the gloomy goddess Mutabilitie "in speeches few," that is to say, in the above-quoted stanza, and in part of the following

"Cease therefore, daughter, further to aspire,
And thee content thus to be ruled by me,
For thy decay thou seek'st by thy desire:

But time shall come that all shall changed bee,
And from thenceforth none no more change shall see!'
So was the Titaness put downe and whist,

And Jove confirm'd in his imperial see;
Then was that whole assembly quite dismist,
And nature's self did vanish, whither no man wist."

Tempting as this great question of the seeming sovereignty of Change throughout the universe is to all speculative thinkers and contemplative poets, it is one which seldom suggests itself to the generality of men,

Upon taking a general survey of our immediate friends and acquaintances, as well as of that wider field of human nature offered to our investigation by incans of books, most thinking persons will be inclined to assent to the following proposition-There are among us minds which are stationary; minds which are progressive; and minds which are neither progressive nor stationary, but changeable. With the minds which, for want of a better word, we here call stationary, we have, at the present moment, nothing to do.

Concerning the other two classes of mind, thenWhat is the difference between a progressive and at changeable mind? Both change: both are apparently one thing to-day and another thing this day twelve months. Both are open to the charge of being never the same; of being

"Everything by turns, and nothing long."

Can it be true that progress, i. e. growth, is identical with mere change and fickleness? Are they even very closely allied?

Let us try to consider the nature of what we have called the progressive mind. What do we mean by the term progress, as applied to the mental and moral nature of a human being? A movement forward or onward. But how does it move onward? It cannot (no finite being can,) go on beyond its sphere of the finite. Progress is a somewhat deceptive and ambiguous term, when substituted, as in the present case it so often is, for development or growth. Progress, as applied to a human mind, does not mean a shooting forward in one direction like the flight of an arrow. Rather is it a gradual expansion in all directions from its centre of life, like the radiation of light. This centre of life, or the absolute vital principle, is as yet hidden from human science; but it exists, because we see its effects, and have learned somewhat of the laws by which it works. Perhaps the real life-principle throughout all creation, whether in vegetable, in brute, or in human nature, moves and works in the same ways, i. e. by an inward effort towards an outward expansion or free development of all its powers. It is this effort towards expansion, and the success in the effort, which constitute life. The effort to expand is, cæteris paribus, always equal to the expansion

achieved: the outward development shows the amount of inner vital power. Favourable or unfavourable circumstances may facilitate or retard this development, but they are accidental and not essential to it. Now the works of God are not uniform, in any kind, but multiform. As "one star differeth from another star in glory," so does one human mind differ from another in amount and intensity of vital power-in strength, extent, and beauty of development. Take two seeds from the same plant, and throw them into the earth at the same time, and side by side in the same field, and you will find that one will be before or after the other in springing up, and one greater or less than the other in the stalk produced; that is to say, one has a stronger, fuller vital power than the other; the same in kind, it may be, but certainly greater in degree. In such a case you say, "This plant grows faster and better than that." So it is with human minds. Those among them which attain by gradual development to the maturity of all their powers, are minds of the highest class; they are the finest sort of progressive minds.

really progressive minds have a superficial similarity; and to incompetent observers in certain stages of their career the two seem identical, for this reason-that both change. It is true that all growth is change, but it is not true that all change is growth, at least in the moral acceptation of the idea; for with us here below, much change is decay. The successive changes which constitute growth are gradual and continuous, one naturally enclosing the preceding, as the annually formed rings in the trunk of a tree. The progressive mind never rests or can rest in the present, but is for ever straining after a higher and larger state; that is, seeking to develope itself in an atmosphere of truth, in which atmosphere alone can there be life,—and this consciously or unconsciously to itself.

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It has been said that all growth is painful. growing pains of the mind, be sure, are more acute than those of the body. The effort to live, to expand on all sides, is a combat of our higher vital nature with our lower earthly and material nature, and it is a combat which must go on most fiercely in the largest minds. But let such minds remember the exhortation, "Be not weary in well-doing, for in due season ye shall reap if ye faint not." Now, by the largest minds we mean those not only of the most active and capacious intellect, but also of the most active and capacious heart. A great mind does not consist of much brains and little heart. We firmly believe that wherever there is a deficiency in the sympathies and affections, there is a corresponding deficiency in the intellect, however efficient it may be in some respects; and rice versa. If this be the case, it follows that the most intelligent spirits have the most loving hearts; and hence one cause of suffering to men who are endowed with eminently progressive minds. A French proverb says "A longue vie longue enfance.". This is very often true; and human beings destined to longue vie, i. e. to a great growth, remain in a longue enfance, and form many ties and friendships during that mental infancy, which in the very nature of things must pass away from them when the law of their being impels them outward into that long life which is their destiny. Perhaps the greatest pain experienced by such a mind in its progress is caused by the perception of change in its relative position to other minds, upon which it leant once for support, or to which it once looked up in admiration. The progressive mind loves stability and repose more than all things but truth. Painful indeed is it to find that the early loves, the carly rocks of defence, the early idols, have been outgrown. Doubly painful to feel that the early loves and early idols look coldly upon you, believing you to be heartless and disloyal because you have withdrawn your allegiance. Can you make them understand that the memory of them and of your early feelings is still dear to you, but that they can no more fill your soul now, than your body could wear the baby clothes of its first year? Both parties at first feel the change deeply; the one with a degree of bitterness mixed with its regret, the other, whose course is widening every In some respects the merely changeable and the year, with regret, and it may be with somewhat of

By gradual development we do not mean precocious or unusually rapid development; on the contrary, that is generally indicative of disease, and disease is not the manifestation of life, but of its absence, or rather of its inversion. Now, precocious development, irregular growth-a shoot put forth now in this direction and now in that--blossoms expanding on one branch while leaf-buds are scarcely visible on another and a third is withering for want of sap-a crooked stem, and root that lies merely beneath the surface instead of striking down deep into the earth; these things in the vegetable world are analogous to what may be seen among human beings, in those minds which are neither progressive nor stationary. These are what may be called changeable, and not progressive. They take a start now in this department and now in that; they are greedy of novelty, are blown about by every wind of doctrine; they have no fixed principles; if they lay hold on a right principle, it is by accident, and by another accident they will let it go again. Their vital principle seems to act without law; they are without stability, as well as without regular motive power. These minds are often brilliant and clever; they are sometimes spasmodically strong; and they have been in all ages the great misleaders of the human race. These are they who run away with halftruths and deify them, while they carry on a vehement crusade against whole truths; who let one idea monopolise their minds, and tyrannize over it, and then relinquish the one idea or the half-truth in favour of some other "Cynthia of the hour," which they in turn abandon for another. Knowledge is powerless for good with them; experience does not make them wiser; and they reach the termination of their earthly career without any clear insight into their own nature, or that of the duties it was given them to fulfil. With them, indeed, it seems true that

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Nought shall prevail but Mutability."

unjust self-reproach, but without bitterness. Both
parties at first murmur mournfully within themselves
those sad words "Verloren ist verloren." But the pro-
gressive mind at length arrives at a stage in its
progress where it sees clearly that nothing good is ever
lost. Those old affections, thoughts, and actions,
those old loves and idols, all that was good of them
still lives for it; and though it gazes steadily forward,
it "casts sometimes a longing, lingering look behind,"
while Faith and Hope sing sweetly Verloren ist nicht
verloren, and Charity teaches it to bear patiently the
evil thoughts and false accusations of those who know
not its true nature, and that the law of that nature is
painful continuous growth, not easy disjointed change.
As we said at first, Spenser could have done justice
to this point; and perhaps we cannot do better than
conclude these few merely suggestive remarks, with
another glance at the length and breadth of the whole
argument as given in the following beautiful stanzas,
the last that we have of one of the longest poems in
the world, "The Faerie Queene."
"When I bethink me on that speeche whitere
Of Mutability, and well it weigh;

Me seems, that though she all unworthy were
Of the heaven's rule; yet very sooth to say,

In all things else she bears the greatest sway:

Which makes me loathe this state of life so tickle,
And love of things so vain to cast away;

Whose flowering pride, so fading and so fickle,

Short Time shall soon cut down with his consuming sickle!"

"Then 'gin I think on that which Nature said

Of that same time when no more change shall be,

And steadfast rest of all things, firmly stayd

Upon the pillars of Eternity,

That is contrair to Mutability:

For all that moveth doth in change delight:

But thenceforth all shall rest eternally

With him that is the God of Sabaoth light:

"

Oh! that great Sabaoth's God grant me that Sabaoth's sight!'

STORY OF A FAMILY.'

BY S. M.

AUTHORESS OF THE MAIDEN AUNT," &c.

CHAPTER XII.-MADELINE.

PERFECT quiet was the doctor's prescription; he said there was excitability of brain-great nervous irritation; he administered sundry tranquillizing doses, directed that the patient should be put to bed, and took his leave. From the moment in which Madeline aroused from the state of insensibility into which she had fallen, she spoke not a word; but her eyes wandered incessantly about the room with a plaintive, wistful expression, as if seeking somewhat which they could not find. At length the tardy opiate had its effect, and she slept; Ida watching beside her. The night wore slowly away-a sultry summer night, palpitating with the daylight warmth so lately withdrawn, so soon to be renewed. There was no moon, but the heavens were gorgeous with stars, and a pale green lustre lingered about the horizon, telling where the day had gone down. The massy, motionless woods

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oppressed you with the idea of their close and breathless recesses; the odours of the flower-beds seemed to have actual substance, and almost to become visible; the parched turf was one sheet of silver dew. Ida sate at the window, awake, but with her young heart full of dreams. How much unhappiness would be taken out of life, if that one faculty of dreaming were withdrawn! It is not so much that events are in themselves afflicting, as that we have dreamed of a possible future so different, that what actually befals us has all the bitterness of a disappointment. And this is the same, whether we have faith in our own anticipations or not. Experience may have taught our reason utterly to disregard them, but still, Fancy paints her pictures, and though we know well enough that they have no real existence, we cannot help comparing them with the reality. This is weakness—perhaps sin--but the utter eradication of it would seem to be the last triumph of self-discipline. Looking back, we see how narrowly we have oftentimes escaped happiness; looking forward, we see a hundred bright possibilities almost within our grasp, yet, perhaps, never to be reached. Oh! let us remember that the shadow of an awful Presence is upon us, and, safe and still within that guardianship, let us look upwards only!

Ida had watched long, and, as she leaned her forehead upon her hand, weariness overcame her. The multitudinous stars began to blend with each other, and with her thoughts, in a strange, unnatural, bewildering manner; the burden of some monotonous old melody seemed to be ringing softly in her ears, and asserting some inexplicable connexion both with stars and thoughts, as though they were slowly waltzing in time to its rhythm; the inner and outer life seemed to be melting into each other, and producing a compound most harmoniously inconsistent, while the soul superintended this mystical chemistry in a mechanical sort of way, only half conscious what it was about. She was in the state in which poets see their most celestial visions, and painters drink in their purest ideals, and musicians listen to strains which afterwards they can neither remember nor forget, but must needs reproduce after some poor fashion of their own. A movement in the room startled her: awake in an instant, and guiltily conscious of having neglected her charge, she looked up-the bed was vacant, and the door ajar, but trembling as though some hand had just hastily and ineffectually essayed to close it.

Ida was frightened, though she scarcely knew why, and she hurried out into the passage just in time to see the gleam of Madeline's white drapery, as, carrying a lamp in her hand, she passed through the door of a bedroom at the further end. Ida followed, and, looking into the room, beheld her friend on her knees beside the bed in which their little visitor of the preceding evening was sleeping the calm, happy, healthful sleep of childhood. Madeline's face was pallid, and her eyes bathed in tears; she wrung her hands repeatedly with an expression of passionate grief, and vainly struggled to restrain her audible sobs. Presently she

arose, and, stooping over the bed, kissed the child's lips very softly, and with an expression of terror; then she stood for some minutes gazing upon it, comparatively calm; then moved from the bed, as if to go, but by a sudden impulse returned, cast herself once more upon the ground, and burying her face in the curtain, wept without restraint. Ida stole gently to her side, and winding her arms around her, endcavoured to lead her from the room; she looked up, then bowing her face upon Ida's shoulder, yielded without a word to her silent persuasion, and they returned together. When the door was closed behind them, Madeline again broke forth into a passion of tears and sobs; and Ida, supporting her, wept for sympathy, though quite ignorant of the cause of such bitter and overpowering anguish. It is a very penurious and sceptical love which must understand before it sympathizes.

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"My darling! How I must have frightened you!' murmured Madeline, as soon as she could speak, putting back Ida's curls with both her hands, and looking into her pale, tearful face, with an expression half wild, half tender.

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was a very frenzy of delirium. With all the energy of
terror, she compelled her friend to swallow the opiate, "
kissed her, spoke soothingly to her, persuaded her to
lie still; calling to her aid all the arguments she could
muster, and seconding them by the tenderest caresses.
Madeline yielded after a little resistance, and lay
for a while motionless and silent, clasping the cold
trembling hand of her young nurse between both her
own. Presently she spoke, and, this time, with a
sort of desolate tranquillity in her voice, very touching
to hear :-

"Ida, dearest !--you are mistaken in thinking that I don't know what I am saying."

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It is this fever!" replied Ida, persuasively; will pass away again, please God! Only try to go to sleep, dear Madeline!"

"The opium is working," answered Madeline, heavily; "but I have no fever, Ida; and there is no delirium-only bitter, bitter sorrow; an unhealed wound suddenly stricken. Take that little key off my watch-chain, and open the dressing-case.”

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She signed impatiently with her hand, and Ida ner- | vously obeyed her, bringing the dressing-case and "Oh! do not think of me!" cried Ida, "think of placing it upon the bed beside her. She opened a yourself. You must come to bed, and let me get you secret drawer, and drew out a small clasped book, ¦. another of those composing draughts. Oh, how you which she placed in Ida's hands. "There,” she said, are shivering! you are very, very ill. What has it" read that; you must know all now. Oh what a been, dear Madeline? Were you delirious? storehouse of miserable thoughts!" And her fingers "No-no-alas, no!" replied Madeline. "It was played with the cover of the volume. Read it, Ida; all real; and it has been a happy, happy night-read it. I shall soon be asleep." because, you know,"-smiling strangely at Ida,-"I never thought I should have seen him again." While she spoke she was getting into bed, and she now lay down, and drew the coverlet closely around her shaking limbs. "What a comfort sleep is!" she added, speaking in an odd, uncertain tone, and with eyes wandering about the room. "I wonder what I shall dream of. Do you know, I almost think I am going to die."

There was something positively fearful in the contrast between the hurried familiar voice and the solemn words. Ida shuddered as she poured out the double dose which the physician had left, labelled "To be given in case of great excitement." She brought it to the bed-side. "Who was it you thought you should never see again?" asked she, with a half idea that the question might stimulate the invalid to collect her thoughts.

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Stoop down; come close-quite close. Let me whisper!" replied Madeline. She drew Ida's face close to her own, and, putting her lips to her ear, said, in a low, hoarse, nearly unintelligible voice, "My son!"

Ida shook from head to foot, and her agitation was not diminished when Madeline, suddenly releasing her, struck her hands wildly together, and exclaimed, almost with a shriek: "My child! my baby Arthur! -oh, let me get up and go to him again! He will never know it; nobody will ever tell him that it was his mother who came and looked at him in the night. Let me go to him!-Let me go to him!"

Ida received the book; her eyes, dilating with wonder, and tearful with pity, fixed earnestly upon her friend's face.

Madeline looked wistfully at her, and, suddenly || raising herself upon her elbow, exclaimed: " Ida! promise me that you will make no conjecture-none at all-till you have read my history. You cannot || guess the truth. It is impossible. Whatever you are thinking now, is a mistake. Promise me this!"

Ida hurriedly gave the required assurance; and Madeline sank back again, and turned her face downwards upon the pillow, with a quick, impetuous movement. Gradually, the powerful narcotic subdued the excited frame, and stilled, or rather numbed the throbbing nerves, and she slept a dull, unrefreshing, lethargic sleep. Ida scarcely drew her breath; she was overcome with fear, sorrow, confusion, disbelief. She kneeled down, and her agitated spirit offered itself to God in a vague, scarcely-conscious prayer. The mere action brought her comparative tranquillity; and seating herself, she opened the mysterious volume. It was closely written in Madeline's hand-writing, and seemed to be a record of her life, at first in the form of a narrative, aftewards in that of a diary, and interspersed with letters laid between the pages. We shall give it entire; those of our readers who may feel no interest in the subject, having our cheerful permission to pass it over unread :

MADELINE'S DIARY.

"This record is only for myself and one other. I Ida was now more than ever convinced that this may as well address you at once. I cannot put it into

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