God helping, God directing everywhere, So that the earth shall yield her secrets up, And every object there be charged to strike, Teach, gratify her master God appoints ? And I am young, my Festus, happy and free! I can devote myself; I have a life
To give; I, singled out for this, the One!
Think, think! the wide East, where all Wisdom
The bright South, where she dwelt; the hopeful
New hopes should animate the world, new light Should dawn from new revealings to a race Weighed down so 'ong, forgotten so long; thus shall The heaven reserved for us at last receive Creatures whom no unwonted splendors blind, But ardent to confront the unclouded blaze
Whose beams not seldom blessed their pilgrimage, Not seldom glorified their life below.
Festus. My words have their old fate and make faint stand
Against your glowing periods. Call this, truth
Why not pursue it in a fast retreat,
Some one of Learning's many palaces,
After approved example? -- seeking there Calm converse with the great dead, soul to soul, Who laid up treasure with the like intent -So lift yourself into their airy place, And fill out full their unfulfilled careers, Unravelling the knots their baffled skill Pronounced inextricable, true! - but left Far less confused. A fresh eye, a fresh hand, Might do much at their vigor's waning-point;
Succeeding with new-breathed new-hearted force, As at old games the runner snatched the torch From runner still this way success might be. But you have coupled with your enterprise, An arbitrary self-repugnant scheme
Of seeking it in strange and untried paths. What books are in the desert? Writes the sea The secret of her yearning in vast caves Where yours will fall the first of human feet? Has wisdom sat there and recorded aught You press to read ? Why turn aside from her To visit, where her vesture never glanced, Now solitudes consigned to barrenness
By God's decree, which who shall dare impugn ? Now ruins where she paused but would not stay, Old ravaged cities that, renouncing her,
She called an endless curse on, so it came : Or worst of all, now men you visit, men, Ignoblest troops who never heard her voice Or hate it, men without one gift from Rome Or Athens, - these shall Aureole's teachers be! Rejecting past example, practice, precept, Aidless 'mid these he thinks to stand alone : Thick like a glory round the Stagirite Your rivals throng, the sages: here stand you! Whatever you may protest, knowledge is not Paramount in your love; or for her sake You would collect all help from every source- Rival, assistant, friend, foe, all would merge In the broad class of those who showed her haunts, And those who showed them not.
Festus, from childhood I have been possessed By a fire by a true fire, or faint or fierce.
As from without some master, so it seemed, Repressed or urged its current: this but ill Expresses what I would convey: but rather
I will believe an angel ruled me thus,
Than that my soul's own workings, own high nature, So became manifest. I knew not then
What whispered in the evening, and spoke out At midnight. If some mortal, born too soon, Were laid away in some great trance
Coming and going all the while
His true time's advent; and could then record
The words they spoke who kept watch by his bed, — Then I might tell more of the breath so light Upon my eyelids, and the fingers light Among my hair.
Youth is confused; yet never So dull was I but, when that spirit passed, I turned to him, scarce consciously, as turns A water-snake when fairies cross his sleep. And having this within me and about me While Einsiedeln, its mountains, lakes and woods Confined me - what oppressive joy was mine When life grew plain, and I first viewed the thronged, The everlasting concourse of mankind!
Believe that ere I joined them, ere I knew The purpose of the pageant, or the place Consigned me in its ranks - while, just awake, Wonder was freshest and delight most pure- "I was then that least supportable appeared A station with the brightest of the crowd, A portion with the proudest of them all. And from the tumult in my breast, this only Could I collect, that I must thenceforth die Or elevate myself far, far above
The gorgeous spectacle. I seemed to long
At once to trample on, yet save mankind, To make some unexampled sacrifice
In their behalf, to wring some wondrous good From heaven or earth for them, to perish, winning Eternal weal in the act : as who should dare Pluck out the angry thunder from its cloud, That, all its gathered flame discharged on him, No storm might threaten summer's azure sleep: Yet never to be mixed with men so much As to have part even in my own work, share In my own largess. Once the feat achieved, I would withdraw from their officious praise, Would gently put aside their profuse thanks. Like some knight traversing a wilderness, Who, on his way, may chance to free a tribe Of desert-people from their dragon-foe; When all the swarthy race press round to kiss His feet, and choose him for their king, and yield Their poor tents, pitched among the sandhills, for His realm and he points, smiling, to his scarf Heavy with riveled gold, his burgonet Gay set with twinkling stones Where these must be displayed!
No more about your nature," which first shrank From all that marked you out apart from men!" Paracelsus. I touch on that; these words but analyze
The first mad impulse: 't was as brief as fond, For as I gazed again upon the show,
I soon distinguished here and there a shape Palm-wreathed and radiant, forehead and full eye. 490 Well pleased was I their state should thus at once Interpret my own thoughts :
To all," I rashly said, "and what I pine
To do, these have accomplished: we are peers. They know and therefore rule: I, too, will know!"' You were beside me, Festus, as you say;
You saw me plunge in their pursuits whom fame Is lavish to attest the lords of mind,
Not pausing to make sure the prize in view Would satiate my cravings when obtained, But since they strove I strove. Then came a slow And strangling failure. We aspired alike, Yet not the meanest plodder, Tritheim counts A marvel, but was all-sufficient, strong, Or staggered only at his own vast wits; While I was restless, nothing satisfied, Distrustful, most perplexed. That struggle; suffice it, that I loathed myself As weak compared with them, yet felt somehow A mighty power was brooding, taking shape Within me; and this lasted till one night
When, as I sat revolving it and more,
A still voice from without said- "Seest thou not, Desponding child, whence spring defeat and loss? Even from thy strength. Consider: hast thou gazed Presumptuously on wisdom's countenance,
No veil between; and can thy faltering hands, Unguided by the brain the sight absorbs,
Pursue their task as earnest blinkers do
Whom radiance ne'er distracted? Live their life 520 If thou wouldst share their fortune, choose their eyes Unfed by splendor. Let each task present
Waste not thy gifts In profitless waiting for the gods' descent, But have some idol of thine own to dress With their
array. Know, not for knowing's sake,
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